Imperfect Body Positivity

June 10, 2017

The other day, I spent the day filming a little something with @bodyposipanda + @thechristinecho . This year, I’d been challenging myself to wear less makeup on camera. But that morning at 5 am, I woke up and just couldn’t. I had broken out all down my face and resigned to caking on foundation!

AND I’m glad I did! I was really looking forward to the day and the last thing I wanted to do was spend the day preoccupied about my skin. The makeup meant I was in the moment, enjoying playing with tiaras with my friends instead of obsessing whether the camera was zooming in on my spots.

Body positivity tells you that you don’t have to wear makeup to be beautiful. It will challenge you to step out of your front door without it. But this challenge will be varying levels of difficulty depending on how privileged you are with your skin.

Stepping out without makeup is MUCH easier if you have clear skin as opposed to if you present the same task to an individual with acne.

Body positivity will tell you that you can ditch those Spanx but this challenge will be varying levels of difficulty depending on your body shape. Going without Spanx will be a bigger difference on bigger bodies.

Body positivity will tell you to wear that bloody bikini but depending on your body, the amount of abuse in that bikini will change. More scars, more stares. More rolls, more comments.

Body positivity will tell you to eat in public but depending on your body, the content of that food will be scrutinising more. Higher BMI, higher chance of a stranger commenting on your eating.

So before you compare yourself to another person on their body positivity journey and attack yourself for not being brave enough to do this or that, remember that the same task on two different bodies can be of varying difficulty.

Two days later, I finally did a shoot with no makeup and it felt amazing! The only reason I did though, was cause I wasn’t hard on myself two days before. I congratulated myself for trying and told myself I’d do it another day soon – and I stuck to that promise. You are not a failure for having a bad day or “giving in” to beauty standards. Just get back up and try again. #scarrednotscared